it started when i was in coll.... got my context marks for 2 of my assignments : 80/70.... lowest among my group.... :( aileen n amanda got SO DAMN BLOODY HIGH (i think cheah likes girls better). nvm.... i was looking forward to my date... so before leaving my college to ss15, i went to the florist and got her an orange-yellow-with-red-tip rose. then i rushed to the car (a bit late and rule 101 of dating is never be late for the first date). then i got there a bit late (stoopid ss15 no parking wan) and met her outside INTI. when she saw me, i popped out the rose from behind my back and she said "why you give me??? DONT WAN LA!!! i dont wan!!" (*sniff sniff) never mind... she took it anyway.
i thought it would get better. we walked to secret recipe without talking much... had weird conversation about school last time. during lunch, it was fine. but that was from a friend's point of view. i mean, we were like friends... nothing more... then she asked me "why didnt the rest come??" so i said "suppose to be just 2 of us" then she said "so weird la 2 of us only... so whats the occasion??" i said "nothing" ..... (awkward silence) the whole lunch went on like this.... haih....
when we were paying, i offered to pay for the whole meal!! but she didnt want... so i insisted i paid first cos i didnt have any change... then she MADE me take RM20 (actually she wanted to pay 25) which i had to take reluctantly.... then i said, "never mind.... you can pay the next time" then she said the worst thing!! "there wont be a next time" (although she didnt mean it as a rejection way - or did she??) (glass breaks everywhere!! - nola) then she had to go back to coll, so i insisted to teman her back.... kena marah pulak.... but then i said i had to go to taylors to buy hip-hopera vcd.... so might as well follow..... then we went our seperate ways.
haih.... sad isnt it... nvm..
conclusion : the chemistry and spark we once had has disappeared. must be due to the fact that we both have changed and have very different lifestyles and interest and opinions. we changed so much that we are now TOO different. during lunch, both of us admitted to it... i also think that she feels that we were better off as friends, which i would have to agree.... it just would not work out... i am willing to change for her... but i dont think she's ready for me. *sigh*. never mind, she will always be my 'sayang', my best friend.
