ok.... dear fellow bloggers and readers.... im at another crossroad of my life where im stuck and dont know wat to do. ok.... ok....... AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!! I CAN'T START!!!! ok....... its about my sucky love life again. well, ive been after this gurl for almost 3 years already. SO LONG HOH!!! the thing is, in the process, ive accidentally gotten too close to her until become one of my bestfriends!! to tell you frankly, she's the only gurl that i can be with.... she's the only one i can imagine myself with happily without any worries or complains. once you meet her, you would immediately know that she's my type of girl.

so many things are going through my mind now that i dont know what to do. im affraid of rejection. and im affraid of losing what we have now. we have such a strong friendship that i dont wanna ruin. yesterday, we had a chat and we just talked and talked about everything. we both expressed that we missed each other LOADS!!! and this was the first time i felt a warm fuzzy feeling in my heart when she said it. does she miss me as a friend or as someone special??

how leh??!! i mean, how would you feel if all the sudden, one of your bestfriends just told you that he/she loved you for a long time???!!! kinda weird rite.... all our close friends know that ive liked her for an eternity already except her. the problem is that im not sure if she feels the same way about me as i feel about her. from what im reading from the signs, i do get the feeling that she has some sort of feeling for me. but what if im reading it wrongly!! a whole lot of 'what if's appear in my mind everytime i see her. for the past 3 years, not 1 day has passed without me thinking of her.

besides that, am i ready to be rid of my LLOONNGG singlehood?? am i ready for a serious relationship as all my pass relationships were 'play play' wans. what should i say to her?? if i were to tell her how i feel, how should i do it so that it isnt awkward for the both of us??!!! AAAHHHH!!!! (goin a lil mad)

HHEELLPP!!!! CODE RED!!!