for those who don't really know me, i sometimes (i think always) come out with the sudden urge to do something. but this is something that i always wanted to do for a very long time. i'm not some masochist or what, but there are 2 things that i always wanted to do.

NUMBER 1 : i always wanted to do piercings. i want to pierce 2 on the left, 1 on right, 1 on top left ear, 1 on eyebrow and dunno what else. i think its SO kewl. but i have sad news. i did pierce my left ear in the beginning of the year, but my father did not allow me to keep it. SO SAD!! so he made me take it out ont he very same day. SO PAIN!! but the feeling of it when just kena pierce very shiok. hehehehhe.

NUMBER 2 : i always wanted to do a tattoo... okok, i know a lot of people are against tattoos and all, but i think its the ultimate kewl. i don't like those huge dragon and women tattoos.... so 'jeng'. i like TRIBAL tattoos. but since i'm a christian, many people in church are against it... even my parents. according to them, they say that my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit and i have to keep it holy. but you see, im not gonna put some devil or demonic sort of picture. i've heard of another church youth pastor that did a tattoo with his son. both of them had similar tattoos (plain black cross on the arm). so i think it's all up to personal interpretation. i think tattoos that are at the hip are SO kewl... not those gurlie wans.... but those that appear half way out of the underwear... more like these.


the CK model.... i heard he's a footballer... see the puma....KEWLNESS!!!!

well, remember the umbrella earlier, i've finally finished the project (actually i finished a few days ago). the reason why i'm posting it so late is because I'VE FINALLY MASTERED PUTTING PICTURES!! PROPERLY!!! so this is the end product...

okokok.... i admit. im an avid idol fan. i love american idol, i love malaysian idol.... and all the other idols. today, was one of my luckiest days. this is why...

i was in church today. after that, i went to 1 utama with my friends (melinda, cherish, yen li and yen ling)... i was already very lucky as i went there with 4 GURLS!!! WOOHOO!!! but then they're all my close friends. hahahahaha. we went to mark's asam laksa for lunch... again!! i had nasi lemak... again!! SO SHIOCKALINGAM!!! then, my a wonderful thing happened.... (no, i did not experience my first orgasm)

i was eating when all the sudden yen li told me that the malaysian idols were in 1 utama. so i quickly ate and we all rushed to see them.... we were in time to see the last bit of jac's performance (if i ain't got you).... so nice!! then they had the autograph session!! and guess what... ALL 12 OF THEM WERE THERE!!! i was unfortunately on the second floor, so if i wanted an autograph, by the time i reached them, it would be tomorrow.... THE LINE WAS SO LONG!!! so instead, what my friends and i did was this... we started shouting out our few favourite fan's names. by the way, my 3 favourite - rydee, nikki and jac are SSSSOOOO pretty in real life (especially nikki and rydee - they look like ANGELS!!)

so first i wanted to shout JAC.... but my friends didnt really like her... so it'll be kinda weird if i did it myself. so then we shouted out ANDREW!!! but apparently he is pekak. so then we tried NIKKI!! and to my surprise, she looked at me and as i waved as though i knew her, SHE WAVED BACK!!! AAAAHHHH!!!! i was grining from ear to ear man.... summore she's SO pretty!!! then we shouted ANDREW again.... and well, as i suspected, he's pekak la. i wanted to shout RYDEE but then again, my friends didn't want. what to do.... jealous mer.... they so pretty. then yenling wanted to make me die by asking me to shout SAIFUL!!! mati gua saja.

i was SUPER happy for the restof the day. unfortunately, i didn't get any autographs la. i seriously felt like shouting MARRY ME NIKKI!!! but pai seh la.... so after that, it made me even more semangat to continue my strive to become a celebrity. i made a promise to become as famous as them. so kewl man.... autograph sessions, bouncers, managers..... SCREAMIN FANS!!!!

my new motto : GANBATTE!!

*by the way, i ended my trip to 1U by buying some BOXERS!!! AGAIN!!! not boxes....

this has been a long debated question that has been going on in my mind for a VVEERRYY long time.... when i say very, i mean VVVVVEEEEEERRRRRYYYYYYY long time!!!!!!! kinda sad if you think of it... but at the same time, its kinda dumb, i mean, im only 18, and im not gonng get married yet. why do i need to be tied down to someone so that my life seemed complete?? being single has its perks and all but coupled life is also just as nice. it gives some spice to the normal mundane single's life. althought sometimes you would have to experience some heartache and pain and all, but its all part of growing up. and by the way, when you finally get settled down and have kids, you'll have interesting stories to tell. but that's all just nonsense. sometimes, i feel that i need someone to share my life and my feelings with. sometimes it gets very lonely; without anyone special to be with.

anyway, how this conversation came about was like this. i was in the car on the way back from 1U with amanda and aileen. we were talkin about relationships and stuff. we noticed that the 'break-up season' had started. quite a few of my friends have broken up with their other halfs... kinda sad. but life has ti still go on.... so finally we come back to the topic of my post... WHY AM I STILL SINGLE??

time for confesions. the last time i was in a relationship was more than 1 year ago... SO LONG!! ive seen so many of my friends get together and break up so many times, with me just being a speactator. ive had 3 so far. RELATIONSHIP 1 : dont wanna talk about it. RELATIONSHIP 2 : last only for about 1 - 2 months.... not too sure how long because we only officially broke-up a year later. we broke up because i didnt really put her in first on my list.... my studies came first at that time. but she never confronted me, so i just left it be. RELATIONSHIP 3 : this was the saddest of all. i was with a girl 2 years younger than me. it was so short that its embaressing to say how long it lasted. she brokeup with me because she felt weird as i was her first.

in all 3 cases, i was dumped. hmph. so sad... why am i still single?? not to sound all big headed and all, but i dont think im ugly, have a horrible personality, unpopular or something unfortunate that no one would like. although i sometimes sound a lil arrogant, but im actually generaly very nice and funny. some may say im too picky, but i dont think i am. so these are my reasons why i think im still sadly single :