well, remember the umbrella earlier, i've finally finished the project (actually i finished a few days ago). the reason why i'm posting it so late is because I'VE FINALLY MASTERED PUTTING PICTURES!! PROPERLY!!! so this is the end product...

okokok.... i admit. im an avid idol fan. i love american idol, i love malaysian idol.... and all the other idols. today, was one of my luckiest days. this is why...

i was in church today. after that, i went to 1 utama with my friends (melinda, cherish, yen li and yen ling)... i was already very lucky as i went there with 4 GURLS!!! WOOHOO!!! but then they're all my close friends. hahahahaha. we went to mark's asam laksa for lunch... again!! i had nasi lemak... again!! SO SHIOCKALINGAM!!! then, my a wonderful thing happened.... (no, i did not experience my first orgasm)

i was eating when all the sudden yen li told me that the malaysian idols were in 1 utama. so i quickly ate and we all rushed to see them.... we were in time to see the last bit of jac's performance (if i ain't got you).... so nice!! then they had the autograph session!! and guess what... ALL 12 OF THEM WERE THERE!!! i was unfortunately on the second floor, so if i wanted an autograph, by the time i reached them, it would be tomorrow.... THE LINE WAS SO LONG!!! so instead, what my friends and i did was this... we started shouting out our few favourite fan's names. by the way, my 3 favourite - rydee, nikki and jac are SSSSOOOO pretty in real life (especially nikki and rydee - they look like ANGELS!!)

so first i wanted to shout JAC.... but my friends didnt really like her... so it'll be kinda weird if i did it myself. so then we shouted out ANDREW!!! but apparently he is pekak. so then we tried NIKKI!! and to my surprise, she looked at me and as i waved as though i knew her, SHE WAVED BACK!!! AAAAHHHH!!!! i was grining from ear to ear man.... summore she's SO pretty!!! then we shouted ANDREW again.... and well, as i suspected, he's pekak la. i wanted to shout RYDEE but then again, my friends didn't want. what to do.... jealous mer.... they so pretty. then yenling wanted to make me die by asking me to shout SAIFUL!!! mati gua saja.

i was SUPER happy for the restof the day. unfortunately, i didn't get any autographs la. i seriously felt like shouting MARRY ME NIKKI!!! but pai seh la.... so after that, it made me even more semangat to continue my strive to become a celebrity. i made a promise to become as famous as them. so kewl man.... autograph sessions, bouncers, managers..... SCREAMIN FANS!!!!

my new motto : GANBATTE!!

*by the way, i ended my trip to 1U by buying some BOXERS!!! AGAIN!!! not boxes....

this has been a long debated question that has been going on in my mind for a VVEERRYY long time.... when i say very, i mean VVVVVEEEEEERRRRRYYYYYYY long time!!!!!!! kinda sad if you think of it... but at the same time, its kinda dumb, i mean, im only 18, and im not gonng get married yet. why do i need to be tied down to someone so that my life seemed complete?? being single has its perks and all but coupled life is also just as nice. it gives some spice to the normal mundane single's life. althought sometimes you would have to experience some heartache and pain and all, but its all part of growing up. and by the way, when you finally get settled down and have kids, you'll have interesting stories to tell. but that's all just nonsense. sometimes, i feel that i need someone to share my life and my feelings with. sometimes it gets very lonely; without anyone special to be with.

anyway, how this conversation came about was like this. i was in the car on the way back from 1U with amanda and aileen. we were talkin about relationships and stuff. we noticed that the 'break-up season' had started. quite a few of my friends have broken up with their other halfs... kinda sad. but life has ti still go on.... so finally we come back to the topic of my post... WHY AM I STILL SINGLE??

time for confesions. the last time i was in a relationship was more than 1 year ago... SO LONG!! ive seen so many of my friends get together and break up so many times, with me just being a speactator. ive had 3 so far. RELATIONSHIP 1 : dont wanna talk about it. RELATIONSHIP 2 : last only for about 1 - 2 months.... not too sure how long because we only officially broke-up a year later. we broke up because i didnt really put her in first on my list.... my studies came first at that time. but she never confronted me, so i just left it be. RELATIONSHIP 3 : this was the saddest of all. i was with a girl 2 years younger than me. it was so short that its embaressing to say how long it lasted. she brokeup with me because she felt weird as i was her first.

in all 3 cases, i was dumped. hmph. so sad... why am i still single?? not to sound all big headed and all, but i dont think im ugly, have a horrible personality, unpopular or something unfortunate that no one would like. although i sometimes sound a lil arrogant, but im actually generaly very nice and funny. some may say im too picky, but i dont think i am. so these are my reasons why i think im still sadly single :

well, today was my college's SAQS Ball Carnival. it was SSSOOO fun... i was drenched, then performed and finally sold. hehehehehe. well, to start things off, i was drenched... when i say drenched, i mean i was wet (even my boxers were wet!!) how they game went was like this : people pay RM2 and they get a chance to pick a card. there is an ACE, a 3 and 2 jokers. if they get an ACE, they get 1 balloon, 3 for 3 balloons and joker = 0. heheheheh. its kinda like a gamble.... so wif tha balloon(s), they get to take them and burst it on top of the stoopid dungus sitting in the kiddy pool (me, how keat and derrick). and i was the first stooopid dungu... it was SO cold. the wind was blowing, and there was one of those mist blowing fans behind me. CCCOOOLLLDDD!!! summore no sun... sejuk sial.



then i had to change to get ready to do my duet with sam. we sang 'one last cry' by brian mcnight. i wanted to sing 'aint no mountain high enough' while my friends wanted 'if i aint got you' but sam wanted 'one last cry'.... so have to la. kinda out of tune but we had so much fun. and everyone clapped so LOUD!!! then i was auctioned. they called me up so early. (i think i was the 3rd person to go up) i was bought for RM40!!! a lot better than the last time's RM7.10. i dont really know who bought me but she's really sweet and nice. so i owe her a date. my deaar friends were ever so conveniently busy talking so they didnt see me being auctioned.... if not, my price would have gone SKY HIGH!!! there was this crraazzee fella who bought his gurlfriend for RM650!!! siow man!! then i bought sam for RM80... so now i dah pokai.