this has been a long debated question that has been going on in my mind for a VVEERRYY long time.... when i say very, i mean VVVVVEEEEEERRRRRYYYYYYY long time!!!!!!! kinda sad if you think of it... but at the same time, its kinda dumb, i mean, im only 18, and im not gonng get married yet. why do i need to be tied down to someone so that my life seemed complete?? being single has its perks and all but coupled life is also just as nice. it gives some spice to the normal mundane single's life. althought sometimes you would have to experience some heartache and pain and all, but its all part of growing up. and by the way, when you finally get settled down and have kids, you'll have interesting stories to tell. but that's all just nonsense. sometimes, i feel that i need someone to share my life and my feelings with. sometimes it gets very lonely; without anyone special to be with.

anyway, how this conversation came about was like this. i was in the car on the way back from 1U with amanda and aileen. we were talkin about relationships and stuff. we noticed that the 'break-up season' had started. quite a few of my friends have broken up with their other halfs... kinda sad. but life has ti still go on.... so finally we come back to the topic of my post... WHY AM I STILL SINGLE??

time for confesions. the last time i was in a relationship was more than 1 year ago... SO LONG!! ive seen so many of my friends get together and break up so many times, with me just being a speactator. ive had 3 so far. RELATIONSHIP 1 : dont wanna talk about it. RELATIONSHIP 2 : last only for about 1 - 2 months.... not too sure how long because we only officially broke-up a year later. we broke up because i didnt really put her in first on my list.... my studies came first at that time. but she never confronted me, so i just left it be. RELATIONSHIP 3 : this was the saddest of all. i was with a girl 2 years younger than me. it was so short that its embaressing to say how long it lasted. she brokeup with me because she felt weird as i was her first.

in all 3 cases, i was dumped. hmph. so sad... why am i still single?? not to sound all big headed and all, but i dont think im ugly, have a horrible personality, unpopular or something unfortunate that no one would like. although i sometimes sound a lil arrogant, but im actually generaly very nice and funny. some may say im too picky, but i dont think i am. so these are my reasons why i think im still sadly single :

well, today was my college's SAQS Ball Carnival. it was SSSOOO fun... i was drenched, then performed and finally sold. hehehehehe. well, to start things off, i was drenched... when i say drenched, i mean i was wet (even my boxers were wet!!) how they game went was like this : people pay RM2 and they get a chance to pick a card. there is an ACE, a 3 and 2 jokers. if they get an ACE, they get 1 balloon, 3 for 3 balloons and joker = 0. heheheheh. its kinda like a gamble.... so wif tha balloon(s), they get to take them and burst it on top of the stoopid dungus sitting in the kiddy pool (me, how keat and derrick). and i was the first stooopid dungu... it was SO cold. the wind was blowing, and there was one of those mist blowing fans behind me. CCCOOOLLLDDD!!! summore no sun... sejuk sial.



then i had to change to get ready to do my duet with sam. we sang 'one last cry' by brian mcnight. i wanted to sing 'aint no mountain high enough' while my friends wanted 'if i aint got you' but sam wanted 'one last cry'.... so have to la. kinda out of tune but we had so much fun. and everyone clapped so LOUD!!! then i was auctioned. they called me up so early. (i think i was the 3rd person to go up) i was bought for RM40!!! a lot better than the last time's RM7.10. i dont really know who bought me but she's really sweet and nice. so i owe her a date. my deaar friends were ever so conveniently busy talking so they didnt see me being auctioned.... if not, my price would have gone SKY HIGH!!! there was this crraazzee fella who bought his gurlfriend for RM650!!! siow man!! then i bought sam for RM80... so now i dah pokai.

well, day before yesterday, i went to cut my hair as it was way too long... when i spiked it, it looked like a monster/lion/clown. so when i was cutting my hair, the lady cut it and it was still quite long, so i told her "ah aunty... short a bit can anot?" and she replied "i cut a LIL bit only la..." so i was fine... the next i looked up, i was going to cry..... SO SHORT!!! when i went home, my dad said "good good, if not your hair like messy and untamed" and my mom didnt say anything. when i went to college, everyone asked me the obvious question... DID YOU CUT YOUR HAIR??!! so i answered the stooopid question with this "nope, it grew shorter" *dish*. then during lunch, we had a SURPRISE birthday party for one of my friends, wei kiat. so nice, he got a kiss from all the girls... (i was so sad cos i wont be celebrating my birthday in college cos my birthday is during the holiday. :( nvm....) we had this delicious cake from secret recipe, black forest. anyway, when we took the pic... i was SO sad... i looked like a construction worker!!! particularly like those indon workers.... summore i so black... apa nak buat!!! when i went home, i told my mom and all she did was agreed. then she added that i looked like an 80's rock star group!! so sad...... last semester, my lecturer jee yat told me that i looked like an indon construction worker... at that time, i didnt agree with him... but now i do!!! NNNOOO!!!!

*us celebrating birthday boy's (white boy sitting)!! if you can see, my construction worker hairstyle (far right blue sitting)

then yesterday, i proudly started on my project for design theory... its a design of an umbrella structure with a few sydney operah house shapes with a tarpen and a few other small small things!! so, so far ive done only the umbrella, SO MUCH MORE TO DO!!

*my umbrella!!!!

well, update on my sis again... nothing to write la... my life kinda boring at the moment... workworkworkwork onli... haih, anyway, back to my sis. yesterday, when she went to church, the ALL her housemates went along. all 8 of them. apparently all her housemates are very staunch christians. quite a few of them have gone on a few mission trips. one of them even went to argentina for 2 months plus. when they came back, they found out that one of the girls had lost 70 pounds (not weight, the money... cant use sign cos dont have). she forgot to lock her room door. so terjadi la... kinda too bad. thank goodness they all went together, if not they would be suspecting each other like mad!!